Why I Go Outdoors


Going outdoors is suffering. Let me just get that out of the way.

At least the way I go about it. I car camp, I backpack, I hike extended distances, sometimes just to make sure I’m dead tired at the end. At times, I wonder if I’m even enjoying myself. (The answer as I’m driving home, dirty and sore, is always yes). I’ll post sometime soon about a good hike for stamina.

This is not, however, a post about how people should spend time outdoors, or about the redeeming quality of nature. I will say this instead: being outdoors is the thing that saved me. Every now and again you may find that you have to save yourself. I don’t believe in white knights and swooning maidens, someone riding in and taking my chaos away. I believe in self salvation.

There may come time when you come unmoored, a time when everything that you built your life on comes undone and takes you right along with it. At that time you have to find the thing that pulls you back down and grounds you.

A second scenario: you change. Time moves forward, and you become another person, and the things you enjoy become things you enjoyed, past tense. You have to find yourself anew.

Going outdoors in the middle of nowhere used to scare me, but walking into my fear and hiking across it’s surface, is now a source of great joy.


Calm in the Face of Horror


I have been out of the country, turned on the television (something I promise myself to never do) and found that Paris and Beirut had broken apart.

There seems to be a void that opens in the aftermath of horror, and it is up to individual people to fill that void with either love or hatred, calm or fear. Here are a few moments that I managed to capture on my camera recently, of moments that gave me joy. I’ll throw that into the mix, alongside the confusion, the fear, the fortitude, and hope that we as people emerge from events more resilient and caring of each other than before.


Fun Links


Where Writers Write
If you sometimes want to delve into the mind of another to cross compare if their habits are as weird as yours, this will confirm that the answer is yes. I love weird people, I and I enjoy being odd myself.

The 37 Best Websites to Learn Something New
I encourage everyone to make themselves uncomfortable as a habit. Do go with the flow, go against it and see how it feels. Here’s a list to things to try, you only live life once after all.

How To Go No Poo
The most practical way to use baking soda and apple cider vinegar to wash your hair.

Stop Googling, Let’s Talk
I prefer talking in person when possible. It’s just too easy to be nasty and rude from far away.

A New Beginning

UntitledWelcome to the blog!

I’m starting over again with a newer, cleaner format. I’ve just moved over from towriteandamuse.blogspot.com so all the earlier formatting is gone from old posts. I will spend a rainy afternoon trying to fix posts one by one.

But I’m happy to say, that I will be posting soon on a somewhat irregular basis, which mirrors my life right now, as that is also on a wayward path towards unknown territory, bobbing along, gulping air when I can, posting at random.